Love Lost In Darkness

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Love Lost In Darkness by Sylvie Dubois


Love lost in darkness
Love that was misunderstood
Loneliness is my mistress
Consumed by thoughts of you
Damaged, broken, sore
I cry to the heavens
Wondering what's in store

Love lost in darkness
I am thinking of all the times we missed
of all the hugs and kiss
that would never exist

Love lost in darkness
Love that was misplaced
I didn't know my own heart, a love that can't be replaced
Hope is not lost
I close my eyes
A voice speaks your name
I know I am in the wrong place
Cause this love was lost in darkness
but I try to find the light
Cause something like this needs to be made right





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