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I posted the other day about feeling like I was hit in the face with a pie. As a side, I am being nerdy here, check out my title, hehe! If you get it, comment! 

Anyways, I was angry and I posted a big eff you to the Universe or God or whatever because I just had enough with this bad luck streak.  I vented to a really good friend of mine and she mentioned something about Mercury being in retrograde. Apparently, it will be ending soon and I am glad for the dust to settle so to speak. I am starting to see some truth behind her words about the whole retrograde thing:

You know when you get angry and when you are done raging, you have this moment of serene calm, then the depression hits because you realized that deep down, you weren't really angry but really frigging sad? I had an epiphany where I realized that a lot of my anger towards things was really my inability to fully grasp a concept. I am actually pretty annoyed at myself. 

Seriously, the pies just keep on coming! I realized I was a complete and utter dumbass. For someone who prides herself on being smart, I can sure be really daft. It is so embarrassing, I don't think I could face this person ever again! I stupidly undermined my feelings because of some bullshit trauma and if I were honest with myself and my feelings in the beginning, I wouldn't have been in this mess. 

As most of you know, I had Covid and it is only now that I feel almost fully recovered. I was pretty sick and messed up my sleeping patterns. Being sick made me realize that I need to take some time to rest. I was putting too much on my shoulders and I really needed to chill the eff out! 

I guess what I am trying to get at is if anything this period of Mercury retrograde has taught me to be true to myself, and true to my feelings. Also, I should look back at the times I took control of my own life and shouted a proverbial "fuck you" to the world. Keep being that chick because, for the last couple of years, I have been too quiet. I should be confident enough in myself and my emotions that I take the world by storm. Writing has been a great outlet for me. 

I now have my little space on the Interweb where I can shout into the void and I know someone, somewhere is reading this. If you are that person, I hope I inspire you. If anything this whole series of bad luck or mercury retrograde has shown me that I can still get up after being hit in the face with a pie. Yes, I am gonna make an ass of myself by getting up and getting hit in the face a second time but you know what? I don't care anymore, come at me. This time I learned my lesson and ducked out of the way. 

Sorry world, the bitch is back!

In order to appease the almighty Mercury Retrograde gods, here is a cute pic I found on the Interweb of Sailor Mercury!